many people, including known and unknown asked me the same question, 'WHY?'.. by answering this question, i would reply to them, 'why?' as well..puzzled? cos wat they intend to ask me is 'why u'll ever fall for her?'.. after some hard thinking, it made me think tat 'why i cant fall for her?wats wrong?'..for girls, they feel puzzled cos it will never cross their mind tat i'll be wit a girl,and to be precise, they call it TB (tomboy)..for guys, they feel tat its unbelivable,and some even told me tat it is such a waste..lolx..firstly,i would like to thanks them for their compliments tat im cute or pretty and it would be a waste to fall for a girl instead of guys,which made them feel that they dun have any chances in wooing me..however,some thinks tat they hav more chances to make me fall for them(the guys) as im wit a girl,rather than a guy..
im not a born lesbian(as most people define the term lesbian when girls are wit girls)..to be clear,tis is the first and only relation tat im involve wit a girl..why? i've never really think of this question,when i first started wit her..its jus tat she never really give me tat kind of feeling tat she's a 'girl'..she protects me and stand up for me,jus like normal guys will do..and better,she cares for me more than any guys tat i've ever been wit..most importantly,she made me feel tat she's wit me absolutely is because she loves me,not for anything else..for instance, tell a guy tat u couldnt have sex wit them,it will pissed them off..she never asks for sex..she respects me and care for my feelings..okay,we'll not talk abt sex part here..lolx..cos many of my frens(especially girls) will alwiz wonder how is the sexlife wit a girl would be.. >.<
as time passes by, more and more things happen between us..it strenghtens our love, and our feelings towards each other grows..sometimes i will think abt the question tat my fren asked me, 'why'..why i'll love her so dearly? why is our relation differs so much compared to my past relations? why?.. soon,each and every thing she do reminds me of why will i love her so much..sometimes it even surprised me of wat i could do to her..in the sense of protecting her..as our relation grows,i noticed she's jus hard on the outside,and soft in the inside..mayb as she's a TB,she needs to look brave and protective..im happy tat my characters of protective works here wit her..mayb tats why we click to each other so well..
if i were to use one word to describe abt her, i would say 'superb'..especially when compared to guys, she's really awesome..she love me so much tat i could really feel it in her heart and words,when she touches me and when she says tat she love me,she really mean it..many times,whenever we hav small problems,or im jus plain stressed,i'll quarrel and be harsh to her..but she'll never be harsh to me, and alwiz be patience and apologize..i realize its my fault,and i realize how much she love me tat she wouldnt make me unhappy..even when she's stressed up,she'll calm herself down and talk to me nicely..alwiz looking for a solution..and there we go,back to our happy moments again..she's the first and only person tat made me feel tat i love her too much tat i wouldnt risk our relationship by flirting wit other guys..she's the only one tat made me feel tat clubbing witout her by my side is meaningless..even my close frens feel unbeliable when i could give up clubbing for her..she made me feel to love and be loved..she can be as committed as i am..this is one of the major problem wit most of the guys out thr..im not saying tat thr's no good guy, or no bad tb out thr..but she's jus one of a kind..
everyone hopes tat they could find comeone tat really suits them..and i have found mine..she's so great and she's beside me..my future, is now ours...
Sunday, September 16, 2007
thoughts...
waking up in the middle of the nite seems to be,urm..a bit of 'used to' for me now.hav been waking up due to some weird dreams.its either scary, or too adventurous..might be due to my exams tat im too stressed.i couldnt get myself to bed,head keep spinning and spinning around..flashing notes tat i've read..too stress n tension for the exams,i would say...well,this is the first time i'm behaving tis way.to my surprised,and to my fren as well,i started studying two days before the exam(normally i do last min study,as in few hours b4 exam).. mayb i didnt wan to affect my year end results,as im gonna grad by this yr end..
i was in the car this morning,and i suddenly think about my future..i wonder how am i gonna face wit the working world when i completed my degree..how am i gonna produce a 'super' resume so tat ppl will consider interviewing me..wat do i hav,other than tat piece of paper of cert?i wonder...i've never really out on the world,doing office works..and jobs in SG are totally different from those mostly in m'sia..here,u jus need good connections,not much serious interviews to attend..and u got the job..there,i'm not familiar wit anyone,i need to work things out myself..so guess i'll jus hav to learn things from the bottom..how to lead,and be lead..fortunately i hav my bro n sis as my guide in SG,not forgetting daryl for his recommendations for me to work at his company..appreciate his kindness to help me out..
back to here, i still have two more paper to attend to in this semester..couldnt wait for the last day of exam,whr i'll feel so release and could pursue my favourite entertainment of singing-k,shopping and movies non-stop..fabulous stuff i would say..and oso my holiday packages tat i've bought during the matta fair..my fren wonders why i wouldnt join my classmates in a trip to langkawi..thr are few reasons,including monetary,frens and activities..firstly,i wouldnt wan to spend money on holiday witout my hubby..secondly,im not really 'close' to any of my classmates,so it'll be quite boring for me to be thr..thirdly,me n them are not really same 'channel', and i could hardly imagine when we're thr,how are we gonna pursue the activities..nway,witout me doesnt make any difference to them..so,wats the point of me going rite?
another topic to discuss- guys...wondering isit most of the guys are players?even they dun intend to be,but they alwiz did (i guess)..my fren(girl) like to flirt around..she takes it as a kind of..erm, entertainment,i would say..and there are guys all going after her..and i made it visible tat im attached,so even when going out wit them are 'only matter..but sooner or later,they'll start flirting wit me,which i find it funny cos they're going after my fren..though at first i feel pity for them,cos they spend alot on my fren witout asking anything as return..but when they start flirting wit me, it makes me think tat they deserve it..they jus wan ppl to flirt wit them,and not actually intend to make my fren their girlfren..frankly,i dun like guys who are going after my fren and flirting wit me..they made me think tat they're the 'not loyal' kind..lolx..mayb tats why i've turned down on guys..funnily,why guys need to fool around even when they hav a good girlfren at home?its really a maze..tats wat made me think girls are better off in terms of commitment..at least for mine.. :)
i was in the car this morning,and i suddenly think about my future..i wonder how am i gonna face wit the working world when i completed my degree..how am i gonna produce a 'super' resume so tat ppl will consider interviewing me..wat do i hav,other than tat piece of paper of cert?i wonder...i've never really out on the world,doing office works..and jobs in SG are totally different from those mostly in m'sia..here,u jus need good connections,not much serious interviews to attend..and u got the job..there,i'm not familiar wit anyone,i need to work things out myself..so guess i'll jus hav to learn things from the bottom..how to lead,and be lead..fortunately i hav my bro n sis as my guide in SG,not forgetting daryl for his recommendations for me to work at his company..appreciate his kindness to help me out..
back to here, i still have two more paper to attend to in this semester..couldnt wait for the last day of exam,whr i'll feel so release and could pursue my favourite entertainment of singing-k,shopping and movies non-stop..fabulous stuff i would say..and oso my holiday packages tat i've bought during the matta fair..my fren wonders why i wouldnt join my classmates in a trip to langkawi..thr are few reasons,including monetary,frens and activities..firstly,i wouldnt wan to spend money on holiday witout my hubby..secondly,im not really 'close' to any of my classmates,so it'll be quite boring for me to be thr..thirdly,me n them are not really same 'channel', and i could hardly imagine when we're thr,how are we gonna pursue the activities..nway,witout me doesnt make any difference to them..so,wats the point of me going rite?
another topic to discuss- guys...wondering isit most of the guys are players?even they dun intend to be,but they alwiz did (i guess)..my fren(girl) like to flirt around..she takes it as a kind of..erm, entertainment,i would say..and there are guys all going after her..and i made it visible tat im attached,so even when going out wit them are 'only matter..but sooner or later,they'll start flirting wit me,which i find it funny cos they're going after my fren..though at first i feel pity for them,cos they spend alot on my fren witout asking anything as return..but when they start flirting wit me, it makes me think tat they deserve it..they jus wan ppl to flirt wit them,and not actually intend to make my fren their girlfren..frankly,i dun like guys who are going after my fren and flirting wit me..they made me think tat they're the 'not loyal' kind..lolx..mayb tats why i've turned down on guys..funnily,why guys need to fool around even when they hav a good girlfren at home?its really a maze..tats wat made me think girls are better off in terms of commitment..at least for mine.. :)
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
my 24 hours...
i dreamt about someone tat i'd really love to meet yesterday nite..he's the only guy tat could melt my heart and make me smile whenever i think about him..no no,he isit my boyfren..he's my favourite one and only idol, Nicholas Tse..lolx..well,the dream is so sweet,tat i could hardly wake up tis morning..
however, i managed to wake up and followed my bf to work, as i had no whr to go (cos i bang my car and it's still in the workshop).. *sobz sobz*.. losing my car is jus like losing my legs.. *sigh*.. how i spend my day? fortunately i can online here, whr i managed to post my blog.. i watched tvb series almost half day, and the other half spent on eating and going to the toilet.. im so glad to receive a call from my agent, whr i get the chance to work tomolo..then i wouldn't need to stay here and do noting..hehe..my work will be at sungei wang tomolo, for a handphone roadshow..as i had worked with the dealer before (BBS), things will be easier for me to handle with as im familiar with the way they work things out.. :) *cheers*
my exams are around the corner..oh ya, today i received a surprisingly important message,which i almost choked myself to death and sent thrills down my nerves..guess my blood pumps too much blood per second tat im almost fainted..my classmate told me tat one of my other classmate got barred from a subject..im so nervous as im having higher absentism than tat particular classmate..so i couldnt wait but keep calling my classmates to check out my barred list if im barred from any exam..*sweat*..after making few calls, my fren told me tat my name is not in the list..i heard the sounds of whistle and celebrations (peeeeep~ piiip~).. *yeah*..cos last sem i got barred and went for the interview (cos of some misunderstanding)..the head of dept told me tat he does not want to see my face again this semester,else he'd barred me witout any hesitation.. -.-" if i would to see him again, i really dunno wat i shud tell him... >.< hahahah~
tats all on wat i did today in passing the few hours of my life..and yeah, my bf keep pestering me tat she wanted to hav porridge steamboat for our dinner..and i voiced my rejection to it, as we hav not much money left for this month...but her "kiddy" face pretending cute and floor thumping gimmicks really made me surrender...hahaha~ guess my dinner tonite will be so full tat i could save my breakfast for tomolo..lolx... *chaos*
however, i managed to wake up and followed my bf to work, as i had no whr to go (cos i bang my car and it's still in the workshop).. *sobz sobz*.. losing my car is jus like losing my legs.. *sigh*.. how i spend my day? fortunately i can online here, whr i managed to post my blog.. i watched tvb series almost half day, and the other half spent on eating and going to the toilet.. im so glad to receive a call from my agent, whr i get the chance to work tomolo..then i wouldn't need to stay here and do noting..hehe..my work will be at sungei wang tomolo, for a handphone roadshow..as i had worked with the dealer before (BBS), things will be easier for me to handle with as im familiar with the way they work things out.. :) *cheers*
my exams are around the corner..oh ya, today i received a surprisingly important message,which i almost choked myself to death and sent thrills down my nerves..guess my blood pumps too much blood per second tat im almost fainted..my classmate told me tat one of my other classmate got barred from a subject..im so nervous as im having higher absentism than tat particular classmate..so i couldnt wait but keep calling my classmates to check out my barred list if im barred from any exam..*sweat*..after making few calls, my fren told me tat my name is not in the list..i heard the sounds of whistle and celebrations (peeeeep~ piiip~).. *yeah*..cos last sem i got barred and went for the interview (cos of some misunderstanding)..the head of dept told me tat he does not want to see my face again this semester,else he'd barred me witout any hesitation.. -.-" if i would to see him again, i really dunno wat i shud tell him... >.< hahahah~
tats all on wat i did today in passing the few hours of my life..and yeah, my bf keep pestering me tat she wanted to hav porridge steamboat for our dinner..and i voiced my rejection to it, as we hav not much money left for this month...but her "kiddy" face pretending cute and floor thumping gimmicks really made me surrender...hahaha~ guess my dinner tonite will be so full tat i could save my breakfast for tomolo..lolx... *chaos*
Sunday, August 19, 2007
dreams...
i like to think..and sometimes i think i do too much of thinking..i alwiz wonder on alot of things...observation is one of my hobby..i like to observe the behavior of human kinds..wondering why ppl reacting this way, or the other..
dreaming is another subject tat makes me wonder..i wonder how a dream is actually form..and why it could affect someone so much..once,i had a fren who dreamt tat he's in love wit a girl,and the next day he starts wooing tat girl..the dream is so sweet tat he believes its true,and it starts to develop tat kind of feelings deep inside himself..i tried once, waking up crying...tears keep flowing down my cheeks though im already awake..cos i dreamt tat my grandfather has passed away..some of my frens experienced the same thing before,waking up crying..tat makes my curiosity grows even more..sometimes tat feelings in ur dream is so true,tat u almost believe in it..especially dreaming on the feeling of love..
i have frens telling me their problems handling their frenships, or working relationships wit their colleagues..having some observations myself..i found out tat ppl alwiz behave in a way tat we would never understand..sometimes,they would put u into an ackward situation,even when they will never benefits from it..tat makes me start wondering,why they're doing this when it does no good to them..sometimes, they jus wants to make things hard for u..mayb they enjoy watching it..for example, my aunt once told me, her neighbor walks his dog to poo in front of her house..the weird thing is,there's an open space next to their (my aunt n the neighbor) house tat he could walk his dog,but why he purposely walk his dog to poo in front of my aunt house? this action makes my aunt dislike her neighbor..another issue is tat my fren's classmates like to talk bad about her in front of the other classmates,but this does not do any good to the guy who did it..but he enjoys doing it..funny rite? they jus like to cause troubles for other ppl..though it brings nothing good for them...
well, tats wat keeps me thinking and wondering..tats wat alwiz come up in my mind..i'll starts wondering when im free...some ppl thinks tat "why think abt it when it has noting to do wit u?".. i think about it as a way of analyzing wat ppl think, and why...mayb tats me..i cant stop until i get a reason or solution..tats my character..tats why i keep thinking..lolx.. :)
dreaming is another subject tat makes me wonder..i wonder how a dream is actually form..and why it could affect someone so much..once,i had a fren who dreamt tat he's in love wit a girl,and the next day he starts wooing tat girl..the dream is so sweet tat he believes its true,and it starts to develop tat kind of feelings deep inside himself..i tried once, waking up crying...tears keep flowing down my cheeks though im already awake..cos i dreamt tat my grandfather has passed away..some of my frens experienced the same thing before,waking up crying..tat makes my curiosity grows even more..sometimes tat feelings in ur dream is so true,tat u almost believe in it..especially dreaming on the feeling of love..
i have frens telling me their problems handling their frenships, or working relationships wit their colleagues..having some observations myself..i found out tat ppl alwiz behave in a way tat we would never understand..sometimes,they would put u into an ackward situation,even when they will never benefits from it..tat makes me start wondering,why they're doing this when it does no good to them..sometimes, they jus wants to make things hard for u..mayb they enjoy watching it..for example, my aunt once told me, her neighbor walks his dog to poo in front of her house..the weird thing is,there's an open space next to their (my aunt n the neighbor) house tat he could walk his dog,but why he purposely walk his dog to poo in front of my aunt house? this action makes my aunt dislike her neighbor..another issue is tat my fren's classmates like to talk bad about her in front of the other classmates,but this does not do any good to the guy who did it..but he enjoys doing it..funny rite? they jus like to cause troubles for other ppl..though it brings nothing good for them...
well, tats wat keeps me thinking and wondering..tats wat alwiz come up in my mind..i'll starts wondering when im free...some ppl thinks tat "why think abt it when it has noting to do wit u?".. i think about it as a way of analyzing wat ppl think, and why...mayb tats me..i cant stop until i get a reason or solution..tats my character..tats why i keep thinking..lolx.. :)
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(jiang shen gu li gu li)
lolx...well,first to intro myself,im a girl (obviously) who likes to laugh..and laugh..and laugh.. and loves shopping..if its possible,would like to make shopping as my job..hehe..there's alot of things tat i love to do..i love cooking,baking,doing my manicures and pedicures..if i've got the money someday, i'd love to open a shop selling my cakes,cookies,tarts n pies..using ur interests as a money making scheme would be the best thing on earth u could ever do.. well tats my wish.. :)
hopefully u'll enjoy reading my blog.. *cheers*
(jiang shen gu li gu li)
lolx...well,first to intro myself,im a girl (obviously) who likes to laugh..and laugh..and laugh.. and loves shopping..if its possible,would like to make shopping as my job..hehe..there's alot of things tat i love to do..i love cooking,baking,doing my manicures and pedicures..if i've got the money someday, i'd love to open a shop selling my cakes,cookies,tarts n pies..using ur interests as a money making scheme would be the best thing on earth u could ever do.. well tats my wish.. :)
hopefully u'll enjoy reading my blog.. *cheers*
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