thoughts...

waking up in the middle of the nite seems to be,urm..a bit of 'used to' for me now.hav been waking up due to some weird dreams.its either scary, or too adventurous..might be due to my exams tat im too stressed.i couldnt get myself to bed,head keep spinning and spinning around..flashing notes tat i've read..too stress n tension for the exams,i would say...well,this is the first time i'm behaving tis way.to my surprised,and to my fren as well,i started studying two days before the exam(normally i do last min study,as in few hours b4 exam).. mayb i didnt wan to affect my year end results,as im gonna grad by this yr end..

i was in the car this morning,and i suddenly think about my future..i wonder how am i gonna face wit the working world when i completed my degree..how am i gonna produce a 'super' resume so tat ppl will consider interviewing me..wat do i hav,other than tat piece of paper of cert?i wonder...i've never really out on the world,doing office works..and jobs in SG are totally different from those mostly in m'sia..here,u jus need good connections,not much serious interviews to attend..and u got the job..there,i'm not familiar wit anyone,i need to work things out myself..so guess i'll jus hav to learn things from the bottom..how to lead,and be lead..fortunately i hav my bro n sis as my guide in SG,not forgetting daryl for his recommendations for me to work at his company..appreciate his kindness to help me out..

back to here, i still have two more paper to attend to in this semester..couldnt wait for the last day of exam,whr i'll feel so release and could pursue my favourite entertainment of singing-k,shopping and movies non-stop..fabulous stuff i would say..and oso my holiday packages tat i've bought during the matta fair..my fren wonders why i wouldnt join my classmates in a trip to langkawi..thr are few reasons,including monetary,frens and activities..firstly,i wouldnt wan to spend money on holiday witout my hubby..secondly,im not really 'close' to any of my classmates,so it'll be quite boring for me to be thr..thirdly,me n them are not really same 'channel', and i could hardly imagine when we're thr,how are we gonna pursue the activities..nway,witout me doesnt make any difference to them..so,wats the point of me going rite?

another topic to discuss- guys...wondering isit most of the guys are players?even they dun intend to be,but they alwiz did (i guess)..my fren(girl) like to flirt around..she takes it as a kind of..erm, entertainment,i would say..and there are guys all going after her..and i made it visible tat im attached,so even when going out wit them are 'only matter..but sooner or later,they'll start flirting wit me,which i find it funny cos they're going after my fren..though at first i feel pity for them,cos they spend alot on my fren witout asking anything as return..but when they start flirting wit me, it makes me think tat they deserve it..they jus wan ppl to flirt wit them,and not actually intend to make my fren their girlfren..frankly,i dun like guys who are going after my fren and flirting wit me..they made me think tat they're the 'not loyal' kind..lolx..mayb tats why i've turned down on guys..funnily,why guys need to fool around even when they hav a good girlfren at home?its really a maze..tats wat made me think girls are better off in terms of commitment..at least for mine.. :)